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She let out a great exhasperated sigh, "Can't you tell how hard this is for me?" she asked him, trying to get him to understand how she felt, "you're not just an obstacle, Ezra!" she rolled her eyes at his stupidity, "so stop trying to be all nice and rubbish. I don't want to hear it," her usual spark had reared its head for a moment. She hated arguing with him, but if he was going to continue to be evasive, than she was going to choke the truth out of him. Which, to be honest, made her feel a bit like a hypocrite. Who was she to get Ezra to face the truth when she preferred avoiding her problems whenever possible? It wasn't exactly fair to him. "When two people like each other, it's natural for them to explore that," ... "I really don't believe there's much more I can add to this. I'm rather lousy at talking to begin with, let alone giving you my opinion on an issue like this... Yeah. Explore. What the bloody hell was he getting at? She had a twinging feeling in her stomach that he was patronizing her...regardless of whether or not he actually was. She was still glowering with all she had in her. She wasn't exactly directing her expression at him, but more at the ground. With her lips pouted and looking utterly displeased with the world, Katrina looked like the brattiest five year old around. Some way for a sixteen year old to behave; staring at the ground with her arms folded defensively over her chest. 'You're being a really crap best friend right now, you know that?" she said with perhaps more sting than she would have wanted. Immediately the real Katrina that was inside her, not the bratty childish one, snapped back. She glanced back up at Ezra after a moment or two, looking utterly defeated. Why did she have to be so annoying? Even to her best friend. She only had two of those, and she was supposed to treat them nicely...who was she to accuse Ezra of being a bad friend. She felt terrible. Again. How wonderful. "...Look, Ezzie, I'm sorry. I didn't really mean that. Really," she said in the most timidly sincere voice...sounding more meek and apologetic than she may have ever heard herself before. Katrina wasn't exactly quick to apologize; she was stubborn as anything, and usually she would refuse to apologize to people if she still felt she was in the right...but she was treating Ezra like crap and she knew it. She could tell he was uncomfortable hearing about her and Pollux, yet she continued to mention it. Why? Well wasn't that the question of the hour. What good was it doing to make things worse? She was obviously upsetting Ezra, whether he would admit it to her or not...and she was by no means comforting herself, which was more evident every passing moment with the way she was increasingly fidgheting with the closures on her rucksack, the sleves of her robes, the edges of the bench. But still she kept bothering him with conversation when she knew Ezra preferred silence to speaking nine out of ten times. That was what was so different about them; especially lately. He had been getting more absent, aloof, and distant whereas she was seeking a connection to anything and everything she could. He wanted to be detatched, she craved attention. Then why were they so good together? Even in the most platonic sense; there was always something that worked between the two. Some unspoken understanding that even though they were as different sometimes as night and day, they would put up with it for the sake of the other one. But now they were at odds with eachother, and she wasn't at all happy. Why did she keep this conversation going? It surely wasn't to see if he really cared that if she were snogging someone else whether or not Ezra would miss their own stolen moments, was it? Maybe it was. Maybe she wanted to she whether he would miss it, because in the back of her mind...she would. But she couldn't deny that she had feeling for Pollux. But then again Ezra had feelings for her too, according to Pollux. And obviously Pollux had feeligns for her too...and bollocks. This was becoming quite the little problem...the kind of problem that couldn't be solved with a few drinks and a friendly game of quidditch. The kind of problem that Katrina wasn't prepared to sort out. "Look. I'm sorry about telling you this, then. I guess. Pollux told me it would be the right thing to do...so I figured I would listen to him. Obviously he thought you'd react in a totally different way," she shrugged in a half-assed way, just wanting this whole thing to be over, and things to go back to the way they were before. |