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| [A post from an AU Harry Potter site] In the past, Ron had been pulled from side to side, expecting to follow his older sibings just because they were older and instantly taking their side if anything went wrong because that was just the way he had to be, yet never had he felt he was going to be ripped down the middle and taking by either Ginny or Harry and Hermione. Never in a million years did he ever think he was going to be thrust into such a situation and not knowing if he was going to be able to cope. Obviously someone upstairs didn't care much for the feelings of one tall, lanky seventh year Weasley. Yeah...maybe they liked seeing the mixed amount of emotions fleeting across his face, deciding which feeling to stop on like a 'Wheel of Fortune' and let that one loose on everyone. Yet, there were no emotions building up in Ron Weasley. No anger, no amazement, no sense of betrayal...nothing. It was odd, really, because being the bloke he is, he figured that something would come out at the words that Hermione was with another guy, and that guy being Harry. Oh, he dreamt hearing such words many a time. Remembering back to his second year when Hermione had entered the Great Hall for the first time after being un-petrified and running up the aisle just to run into Harry's arms. Ron could've done that any time, but try explaining love to a twelve-year-old who was in the beginnings of a major crush on his girl best friend. Who wouldn't love to be going out with the infamous Harry Potter? That thought used to be thought in such jealously, but now....nothing. Looking up at Harry and Hermione, Ron saw how they were pulled back, looking at him and yet waiting to make the quickest exit of their lives if he even dared to move an inch, then he looked at Ginny. She was the one that confused him the most. She was the one who was breaking a recent broken heart at seeing the man of her dreams with the girl who wasn't her and had been her friend for years. Had that broken heart turned the sister he loved and cared for more than anything in the world into a bitter, vengeful witch? It was like the world wasn't his anymore, slowing down to a weird stop. Ron could hear all their voices merging into one, each attacking one part of his brain, telling the truth, echoing, and then turning into sour, bitter, blaming voices. What did these voices want him to? Knock someone out? Shout until his throat was no more? Cry every single tear that he had refused to show anyone because of his need to look mature? What? He was afraid to admit that he was scared that his whole body felt numb. This wasn't his way of doing things. He was supposed to do the yelling, taking out his anger on the people who had hurt him in the most painful way possible, and leaving it for so long before telling him what was really going on behind closed doors. He either did that or went and took it out on some poor, defenceless stone wall in the Castle somewhere, away from everyone he knew and loved, anyway from the sights and smells he took comfort on, away from the pain he was so scared to feel, letting the anger wash over him in sharp, digging waves, tearing at him, pushing back the pain until it no longer existed. Nothing. His eyes just stared at Harry, Hermione and Ginny, no emotion in there, maybe now slightly glazed over than they had been before, no emotion but a small tear running down his pale, freckled cheek. It wasn't one of sadness, of joy, of anything. It just chose that moment to fall and let itself be known to the world. Behind him, the bookcase that he had actually used to put books on and not clothes had begun to tremble slightly, no books falling off, just moving enough to be heard and tip the books side to side a little. |