This wasn't the way it was supposed to be,

I wasn't supposed to ever love anyone new.

My whole life was planned out,

I don't get where these feelings came about.I was going to love him until the end,

But these feeling's I have can't be pretend.

We were supposed to be a happy family,

And yet all I can think about is you and me.

At first I tried to hide my feeling's for you,

And now that we are apart I know it's true.

That I want to be with you every chance I get,

I think this time my heart's taken a hard hit.

But how? With all the barrier's I had around my heart.

I guess you tore my defense apart.

This wasn't the way it was supposed to be,

I was supposed to have control on how I feel.

I am sorry to have hurt you,

I wish I knew of something I could do.

I never expected to feel this way,

To be thinking about you ever day.

I am not supposed to feel so much pain,

Without you with me I am sure to go insane.

When I wake up and your not there,

And the spot you used to lay is bare.

This feeling tears my heart inside,

I need you to be around, I need you in my life.

Why do I have to think about you all the time,

Always thinking of ways you could have been mine.

This wasn't the way it was supposed to be,

Why couldnt you have just told me you loved me.

What were you so afraid for.

Did'nt you want us to be so much more.

It's like I am in a bad dream and just cant be woken,

Those three little words are all that needed to be spoken.

But it's not, these feeling's are so real,

And I am trying so hard to find ways to deal.

With not being able to see you smile everyday,

It's not fair, this is not how I want to pay.

I all ready miss all the fun we had,

Just thinking about it all makes me feel so sad.

I miss you, and everything about you,

Can't believe that what we had is through.

I never met anyone like you before you make me feel so good,

When I am around you I can't help but be in a happy mood.

I should have spent the rest of my life with you,

I don't understand why this is ending so soon.

There are so many thing's I am going to miss,

I really wish it didn't have to end like this.

This wasn't the way it was supposed to be,

You weren't supposed to make this decision for me.

Hold on, I need a moment! *blows nose and wipes eyes* That was really beautiful! Very touching. Although, not that it really matters, but it seems like it should belong in the poem/songwriting category. Of course it is very romantic!