Note: Yes, majority of these are about the woman I love. You all know who she is. ^_^
(ins) means that it's 'instrumental'. Most of these were meant to be songs.
A Lovers’ Death
Our eyes declare a truce of trust.
This will draw me far away.
And so it’s here, my heart meets you,
Clutching to the silver light,
Here I feel (feel you), and every breath (breath) is true…
(ins)
Even this distance feels so near,
As if you were really here,
Even if it’s my past I fear,
You’ll be the one to rescue me…
(ins)
A clouded dream of a starry night,
Where our love will move the trees,
Voiceless song on our starry night,
Sings of a forbidden trust,
And so it’s there my heart meets you,
Where every breath of ours is true…
(ins)
Let’s sin as much as we can tonight,
Our world is what we make it, forget our loyalties,
Come on, sin with me,
Come on, play a heart,
Sin with me, because tonight we die a lovers death.
(ins)
I’ve never felt my heart beat so fast, this starry night will never end for us.
No words describe this, our breath says everything, we won’t stop ‘till the morning light.
Our star-filled night will never end.
(ins)
Our eyes the colour of insanity (of sin),
Passion burning with intensity,
We know we sin unfaithfully,
But we do so in tranquility,
All for our love so rightfully.
(Background lyrics)
{So let’s live in danger, my little stranger.
I’ll feel your peace.
Give me some danger little stranger.
Heal my disease.}
We have a secret that we let nobody see.
Your loving shadow, it’s been hangin’ over me.
A part of my soul, that I love more each day.
We do the things no-one wants us to do!
Difference from others?
We know this is true!
(ins)
I live a split personality.
The one I feed is the one who gives.
The one I starve is the one who forgives.
(ins)
(background again)
{So why is life so cruel?
Why am I here (not there?!) resigned to be your fool?}
My faith to others is like a cigarette…
It burns up slowly then goes out like that…
Because of him, I can barely trust… (rescue me)
Because of you, it’s starting to fade… (protect me)
I lust for you, trust you like no other… (love me…)
Because of you girl, I can trust again…(my sanctuary…)
{I don’t want to hide…
I don’t wanna be so snide…
Please don’t let me be lied to…
I don’t wanna die… (because of him…)
(It’s like Jekyll & Hyde…)}
So why is life so cruel,
Why am I here (not there?!) resigned to be your fool?}
We have a secret that we let nobody see.
Your loving shadow, it’s been hangin’ over me.
A part of my soul, that I love more each day.
We do the things no-one wants us to do!
Difference from others?
We know this is true!
{So let’s live in danger, my little stranger.
I’ll feel your peace.
Give me some danger little stranger.
Heal my disease.}
So come on, sin with me!
Come on, play a heart!
(Sin with me)
Because tonight… We Die… (A lover’s death…)
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Rope of Sand
(ins)
I try now to decide what’s best for me,
Come and go it’s your will but you’re nothing to me now,
(ins)
I don’t understand why you leave, but it’s not for me to know.
Who will know who I am, I’m free to go?
(quick ins in the background)
Where are you now, I don’t really know…
But now you’re just a dream, just to me,
I don’t know why you haunt me,
Please, my ghost, just leave me be…
(long ins)
Fire fuels the weary soul…
Wake the sea of silent souls…
Bloody warrants on the floor…
Now my ghost please stay alone…
Feeling lost my blood runs cold…
And I need you to return now,
Because I can’t make it on my own…
(long ins)
It’s not to live it’s to survive,
My brother I’m tired of being blind,
I’ve passed many years, awaiting a sign,
My traitor I’m tired of being blind,
Now you know you’re my dark side,
My demon I’m tired of being blind…
(long ins)
You’re my sanctuary (my sanctuary) now…
(I wish that I’d sooner woken up)
So please protect me…
(what’s left of me…)
Please
(I wish that I’d never woken up…)
So rescue me… Please protect me…
Now…
(long ins)
Resurrection is a dream…
Why is it that I can’t see…
Now redemption is a dream…
Now my past it strangles me…
(short ins)
(Like Jekyll & Hyde)
Never thought my past could be so snide…
Now please my love look inside…
Save me from the demons in my mind…
(please my ghost leave me a lone)
Now my love please lead me home…
(short quick paced ins)
You’re my sanctuary…
You’re the love of me…
So rescue me…
Please rescue me… (love)
Oh… (what’s left of me… Rescue me… My sanctuary…)
(Long ins)
(Rescue me… My sanctuary…)
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The Gambler
I’m the king of Spades,
The Jack of all Trades,
The Wild Card, God knows how scarred,
Wish he could leave me a lone,
Force me to walk along a lonely road,
Same worn out places, same worn out faces.
Can I get away, from all these dark, dark places?
Get me away, bring me down, away from this town,
Feel like I’m drowning inside, Lord, I feel like Hyde.
Sin, lust, wrath, my unfaithful vice,
Just enjoying my life (my desires), rolling such a sinful dice.
I’m the word scrambler,
The high-stakes Gambler,
The Doppelgaenger,
Just a sinning double-walker.
King of Hearts,
Playing all the parts,
In this life-long play
(Lord can’t I get away?)
Do I need to stay?
(Lord let me get away…)
Father I’ll pay for all my sins,
Take care of my next-of-kin,
Lover wrapped in unfaithful skin,
Lord, swear I’ll pay, for all my sins.
Playing Tristan & Isolde,
Feels like I’m getting old,
My breath so cold,
Why wasn’t I told? (Fairytales are so damn bold)
The Jack of all Trades,
Leading all of the Raids,
I’m the Wild Card, God knows how scarred,
Sin, lust, wrath, my unfaithful vice,
Rolling sinful dice,
Enjoying Double-Life,
Just a sinning Double-Walker,
The Doppelgaenger,
Just a word scrambler,
Become a high-stakes Gambler…
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Courage Or Stupidity?
(His faith, his ways, leaves my anger ablaze.
Make him see the sickness, of living love like this…)
Now I don’t know what… To say,
Just want to run… A way,
Stuck inside… A play,
I swear some day… (I’ll run… A way…)
(slow ins)
(Chorus)
And I know when I get there…
I’ll give you everything I can…
I’ve never known what you wanted, from me…
But now I’m yours ‘till the end…
I know you’ll never let me down…
As I wander town to town…
(End Chorus)
Always feel like I wear a crown…
Know you’ll never let me drown…
A new identity, cast upon me…
Nothing I want more than to be free…
Masques are wearing thin…
As live… In forbidden affection…
(And I want him to see…
How sickening love can be…
Oh, can’t he see…
My love, you’ve poisoned me…
Red Thread… You’ve set me free…)
(Fast paced ins)
Spinning this thread, now I can see, you have saved me from the dead,
Stopped me living in dread,
Treacherous waters is what we do tread,
As we meet our lips in the bed…
Now I can rest… My weary head…
Tangled in the sheets,
Take me to the streets of your town,
Please don’t let me down, just meet me on the ground, let’s let out every sound.
We stick like glue,
Now to love me, gimmie a clue,
Don’t think, just do.
Meet me here, on a starry night,
Let’s get out of sight- Give everyone a fright, shut off these god-damn lights.
(Chorus)
Now I don’t want to hide anymore,
Need the tears inside to dry some more,
Run from my ghosts, I’ll try,
You always by my side,
Living forbidden passion and sin,
Living a fairytale that we’re forced in,
Is it courage or stupidity?
As we run fro conformity,
Making new identity,
Loving in serenity,
Courage or Stupidity?
Don’t think, just do, just love me.
(chorus)
(Background: Don’t think just do, just keep loving me, as I keep loving you.)
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Lost & Found
Another tear, falls in the snow,
Don’t know what’s lost, yells the crow,
See what’s been done, let it go,
Let it fly, let it be on it’s own.
Moving in silence,
Seeking a resonance,
The tune of a past life,
Cutting through like a knife,
When will it get another chance?
Don’t know what’s lost, yells the crow.
Morals running thin,
Slipping on ice and sleet,
Wearing a grin, clutching new prize,
Running down a busy street, thinking of new disguise,
Don’t know what’s lost, yells the crow.
Another day another dollar gone,
Waiting for the coming dawn,
Staring at every incarnation,
Of any ill-begotten faun,
Don’t know what’s lost,
Always flying a lone,
Don’t know what’s lost.
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Ways of Life
Spirit methinks is beautiful magic covered in dreamy character.
Love, the language of hearts, and the tormentuous envy of humans.
Mind, the glass sitting in the sun, waiting to be cracked or filled.
Soul, a myriad of colours we live to decrypt.
Body, a fragile vessel used to navigate through fears and lies of a concrete jungle.
We’re humans, life is getting hard, as I look to tied up, tattered shoes, twisted twigs and crooked cross, I wonder what the next life brings.
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Old Celtic Treason
Walking with caution in a forest of sin,
living the old Celtic Legend.
God defiance, as I take my steps,
reliance on Dante, my blood running cold,
tell me, why do I feel so old?
Separated by location and duty,
loving only in isolation and secrecy,
committing a heresy, living in adultery.
Fighting our demons, we look to each other--
Marcus is flirting, while I am protecting.
What reward have I reaped?
I love in secrecy and mystery,
while he may have gained it without fear.
We both know, Dante has said,
that if Marcus were to discover adulterous ways,
his anger would be brighter than any Irish flame.
Sitting in the shade, I sigh with good reason,
send a cipher by silver steed,
I’ve planted a treacherous seed.
Soon we’ll do a Heretic’s deed.
As you arrive, I feel the gaze of a divine,
Dante chuckling next to me, knows what is to come,
as we sweat, pant, and sigh under traitor’s sun.
Cold night air sweeps past like gentle mist;
we barely feel it, sharing a golden soft kiss.
Flames surrounding us, however tame,
ignite the passion higher, all without shame.
This is our tale of treachery and love,
soft and pure as a snow-white dove,
always so gentle and never frail.
As enduring as gold,
never growing old,
this is our fairytale.
Tristan & Isolde.
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Wish For Me.
Why does the distance feel so near?
Why is the matron the one I fear?
And while I’m far away, walking down the lonely road, will you ever heave a sigh, or a wish, for me?
I plan to visit, a warm summer’s day,
Upon arrival I plan to stay,
On that chilling night of my most lustful dreams,
It is only next to you that I will lay.
And while I start packing, to drive down that road, will you look up at the sky and pray for me?
Pray that I’ll be fine, pray that I’ll last the night, for without you how can I even live?
How can I live, how can I breathe, how can I even see while you’re not next to me?
Though it really doesn’t matter, it’s simple my desire, to spoil this decree and solve your hearts mystery.
All I want to do now is travel the world, always by your side straight to the bleeding core.
My dream is to hold you,
My dream is to kiss you,
Maybe a little more as I try to entice you?
Now tell me something girl, what is it you have in store, as we travel down the path of nothing but pure lore.
Why does our distance make us feel so near?
Why is it losing you I deeply fear?
And while I’m far away, walking down this lonely road will you ever breathe a sigh or a wish for me? (Will you ever breathe a sigh or a wish for me?)
Haunted by my past, I just want to lash,
I can feel my sanity slipping away,
And I want to trust you much more than I do, but even if I can not seem to, I still do love you.
Now please, my love, please save me from myself.
Why does the distance feel so near?
Why is losing you what I deeply fear?
And while I’m far away walking down this lonely road, will you ever breathe a sigh or a wish for me?
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Never had a name for this one...
Nobody said this love was going to be easy.
Now I see that they were right.
Feeling this envy, I feel so damned queasy, but now I just have to fight.
I may not be able to do all I feel.
But I’ll fight as much as I can for you.
Because I know that when you have a dream like mine, nobody can hold you down,
And I’ll walk with tooth and nail bared straight into your town, fighting any person who feels me unworthy of your love. I will never be dragged down.
Not even a Doppelganger can hold me from you now.
Shaken and battered, I’ll slump into your arms, no matter how much I know the risk of the alarms.
But as I settle my lips against your own, I’ll slip my arms around you like the softest gown. Having my mind on eternity, with you as my love, I’ll put a lustful ecstasy over us like some kind of sinner dove.
And I’ll keep on dreaming,
I’ll keep on dreaming
And I’ll keep on fighting,
I’ll keep on fighting,
Just to hold you, taken, in my arms, and my dearest Meagan I won’t care about alarms.
Because I’ve got a simple dream to hold you in my arms,
Just to say I love you, maybe do more as I try to entice you.
Now you know my envy troubles me, you know I don’t jest. You know I want him to bleed but I can’t help but feed off the thought of him feeling the pain I kneel to.
I’m not sure what’ll happen.
And I know I’ll be afraid.
Can’t help but feel I’m the center of a raid.
I got my mind on eternity, with you as my love.
And I’ll put lust over you and I like a sinner dove.
I’ll want to hold you, here in my arms, and my Red Thread, Meagan, I won’t care about alarms, because I’ll fight for you. I’ll die for you.
Oh, there’s nothing I can do now…
Because I’ve fallen in love with you.
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To The Broken God, Hail.
Do I look as broken as I feel?
Mask cracked, now frail,
With skin cold and pale,
Can I love without hindrance or fail?
Are we following the path forbidden, is it the right trail?
Only God can show us the answer, so to him hail.
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Vae Victus
Vae Victus,
Woe to the Conquered,
Dead souls, rotting lives, over which we have sauntered,
Lord knows why distance so cruel,
Battles and inside wars which we can never seem to win,
One battle won, without ever starting,
One battle raging, seven years running.
Vae Victus!
Suffering to the Conquered…
Doppel-Ganger,
Mirror-Image,
My anger burning bright, envy and passion driving the fight.
Vampiric, sleep deprived,
Paralytic, Catatonic,
The worst is the waiting,
I don’t believe it’s gotta be this way,
In this city, I’m suffocating,
I need a way out.
Vae Victus.
Traitor,
Conspirator,
Lover,
Savior,
I am all and I am nothing.
I am hers, and she is mine.
Despite the lies she’s making, her love is mine for the taking!
He’ll easily break like a thousand glass shards,
Lord knows, by now, he has no class.
Vae Victus.
Vindictive,
Sanguine,
I am a Phantasmal Tempest, in his eyes.
The Reaver of her Soul,
Possessing nearly cursed gold,
Loving forbidden passion cold,
Pity, he’ll never know the love she holds,
But she is mine, her soul, her heart, her tainted gold.
Poor him, for the obsession and the lost.
Vae Victus.
A lot huh? ^_^'''
o.o; Wow that was a lot. Well, anyway, I think I'll post a few.
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Red Bull [Gives You Wings]
A world of seven shades of gray,
hiding sunshine's brilliant rays.
Well, I've got something neat and new,
adrenaline painted red, white, and blue.
But do I have the courage to
face all that surely will ensue?
I'll dive in with swallowed pride,
Wade in the ever-changing tide.
Elation at my own expense,
give no thought to consequence.
Just one more sip is all it takes,
Burning myself at the stake.
Ah, the songs those lovely angels sung,
with silver coating every tongue,
they took my hand, they set me free,
Driven by the ecstacy.
But now, I fear there's something wrong,
my ears can't hear their soothing song.
And where's that feeling of delight,
that kept me going through the night?
It's clear to me I was deceived,
my angels turned out to be thieves.
They stole away my innocence,
a long forgotten consequence.
I'll wallow in my own dismay,
paint myself seven shades of gray.
ignore all that is neat and new,
and everything red, white, or blue.
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Ouroboros
Kill me slowly,
leave me writhing.
Strike again,
when I'm done healing.
Trapped inside
a self dug grave.
A lost soul
No one thought to save
Fuel my
self destructive fire.
Weave me truths
spun from a liar
Stumble, falter
Crash and burn
Come crawling back
I'll never learn
Spread my wings
and learn to fly
Can't truly live
And never die
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The World is Silent [Remembrance Day poem]
One day, the world's politicians,
were replaced by the morticians,
tending to the fallen soldiers,
wounded beyond recognition.
Listen closely, you will hear,
the sound of strife is coming near.
Fire and smoke will cloud the sky,
but that's the least of all their fears.
Blood with spill, and friends will die,
and some won't get to say good-bye.
But look around, and you will see,
their memory in their family's eyes.
Valiant actions, of valiant men,
who might've been family or friend,
peacekeepers of a war long past,
died in their country's defense.
Our tired eyes are distant,
thus simply, for an instant,
on this day of remembrance,
today, the world is silent.
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Boogeyman
He's there in your closet,
he's under your bed.
You know you can't hide,
when it's all in your head.
Bolt all the windows,
and lock all your doors.
He's coming now, slowly,
up through your floorboards.
He's picking us off,
like lambs to the slaughter.
There's no place to hide,
so don't even bother.
Crawl under the covers,
and turn out the light.
Behave yourselves, children,
he's coming tonight.