Title: Not This Damn Place.... Again
Description: The lover ish back. <3
Scrimpy - July 22, 2007 02:37 AM (GMT)
I moved along the sands rather bored. My old home here, Riduna. I had vanished after a freak thing. Amity I have no clue where he is. I hope my son is okay. He was never right, 'specially being Hurricane's son. I do hope he's doing okay. Still I sigh. These lands used to have a thriving herd upon them. Maybe a bunch of random equines that didn't get along, but still we were a family. A father disfunctional family. I halt and let me head fall limp. My charcoal mane has become rather like yarn in the past year. Always wet and filled with salt I guess it can't help it anymore.
Opening my bright blue eyes, I just looked at the ground tiredly. My breath visible in the autumn freeze. Lifting my head up tiredly, I move along slowly. I want to find a suvivor from the herd. i know my brother is dead. I had seen his corpse. I want someone with me right now. Flicking my tails I'm at the end of my heat with just a few days left. Still I can't help but break down and cry in the surf. So many memories were held here.
Most of all about Echelon. I miss him. I never thought I miss that damn bastard of a dark. Oh, I miss him 'cause I loved him. I'd never admit it to him 'cause I'm stubborn and always right, but if I ever saw him again I'd tell him I'd love. I would. He's dead though, or prolly some where else....
sassaboo - July 22, 2007 03:00 AM (GMT)
Nares widened, following a faint scent of past friend. For all I know my mind is playing tricks on me again...I had already been reunited with Calla Lilly twice since I had known her, each time I come back she was always the first I'd want to see. Surely she was dead now, after all, none of the others were here. And surely, we couldn't reunite a third time. Maybe the ocean was just carrying some scent to me, and maybe it just made me think of her...But the scent just got stronger, and I had become driven by it. You know what they say, third time's the charm.
Climbing up and over a sand dune, I scanned the beaches for any sign of life. Nothing. Except a really large peice of drift wood, waiting in the surf. Narrowing my gaze, I see the supposed wood move. Straining my hearing, sobs can ever so lightly be heard over the ocean. As the wind blew my mane back, the scent I had been following filled my nares. It couldn't be...Could it?
"Calla?" I call softly, probably not loud enough for her to hear. But I try again, and I find that my hooves are moving almost without permission. "Calla Lilly? Calla!" I see what I thought was soild brown, turn out to have white splotches, matching the ones etched into my memory. It is her! She lived! I don't see the colt she had when we were seperated, but I had kept my promise and she would never see that wretched Hurricane again.
My cantering pace slows as I splash into the waves, seeing her collapsed in the water in hysterics. "Calla...." What had become of her? The once brave, strong, and stubborn mare I once new was fallen and crying, it seemed she just gave up on life itself and was just waiting to die. As though she was a mirage, I had to be sure this was the same Calla I had fallen for a couple years ago. Lowering my muzzle, I gently touch her nape, nuzzling at her whithers with a small smile. No doubt, this was Calla Lilly....
Scrimpy - July 22, 2007 03:18 AM (GMT)
I must have been out of it because I was still sobbing my heart out. I guess it was a way to finally vent it all out. My brother's death, the death of my secret lover, and this land. The tears just fell. I felt something on my withers and thought nothing of it at first, thinking it was a plant or some critter. But kept going. Half wheeping I crain my tiara to see this fiery blob with bright flaxen mane like fire.
I choke on my tears as I looked up to Echy. It couldn't be. It wouldn't..... He was dead and now I was seeing his angel watching me as I just literally starve myself. My bones were showing through my muscles. This was suppose to be my prime, but now it's just this. Still the nuzzle feels real and scent strong. I feel my bright eyes fill up with light. It is him.. Echelon.
The tears start to come again as a smile comes to my face. Fallen I am, but I can't help it. I'm driven betwen insanity and reality. I try to speak his name but it only comes out as a sob. It just can't be. It can't.... "Leave me alone..." I said through my sobs. "You're just a vision of Echy...." Still I look to him feeling as if he is real and that I'm real.
Through my charcoal locks I slowly begin to lift myself up and stop to cry. My painted body just an inch shorter than his fiery one. I stand looking at him and lunge forward to put my head around his neck. I don't want to leave again. I don't want to be alone again. I don't want to loose anyone close to me again. "Echy, you god damn bastard. Where the f---- have you been?" I asked hysterically but can't help but bury my head into his mane. I'm home... I'm home.... I'm finally home...
sassaboo - July 22, 2007 03:37 AM (GMT)
I kept trying to make her realize I was here as she laid there, refusing to believe it. But as she rose, I grinned to her smile through her tears. I now see how fully she has changed, it was amazing she wasn't dead by now. As she leaps up to me, I wrap my own boa around hers, chin resting on her withers.
Still nuzzling her, I listen to her rather harsh words, but I couldn't blame her. And to top it all off, a somewhat strong scent came from her over the salt water, her season. My nares flared again, pressing my muzzle against her thin nape. Ah, she smelled wonderful, season or not. You know the saying, 'never know what you have until you've lost it'? Well I'll tell you something, nothing, absolutely nothing, is as true as that saying. At least for me, only thing is...I've lost Calla many times, and each time we met again, I never said anything. I was a fool, thinking I'd have all the time in the world. Not now, now I fully understand that I could lose her for good the next time, and I didn't want that day to come.
"It's okay...I'm here now...." I try to comfort her, trying to think of exactly what to say. I loved the feeling of her muzzle in my mane, and needless to say it was somewhat distracting right now. "I don't know, after what happened it took me a while to get back here. I've reclaimed these lands in hopes of another herd, in hopes of everyone from the past returning...In hopes of finding you." I know it sounds like lines of a movie, but it was true. Who knows how many times I've woken from sleep thinking I've heard her voice, but she was never there. Now she was here, with me, and I was not going to let her out of my site again.
Scrimpy - July 22, 2007 04:08 AM (GMT)
I listen to his words and my tear stopped falling. Instead I pressed my head against him more before pulling it away slowly to look at him. I let out a sigh, but a good sigh. My tired eyes looked at him before closing. I know I act old, but I feel old right now. Just after everything, it feels good to hear his words and not sarcastic either. My brother was right after all. No matter how much we argued it only made us stronger. It's for him that I returned here, but it's for Echelon that pushed me to make it.
A silly grin spreads across my weak face as I shake my head at him in a 'tsk tsk' fashion, but he knows that I only do it 'cause I love him. Still I can't believe he's alive all this time. Still there standing in his musculine form and all. I'm not going to make mine as sappy, but instead just give him a nuzzle on the nose. "I've missed you too," I said to him softly so that only he could hear.
Slowly I pick my hooves up and move over to his side. I migth be weak, but I'm not about to let him help me get around. I'm not old yet and won't start acting like it anytime soon. Standing beside him I smirk. I would argue now, but I don't want to at the momemt. Though I know in the next day or two I'll be nagging at every little thing he does. But I'm here to stay at Riduna. This is my home, my future, my love. "I won't wander anymore either so long as you keep Hurricane away," I stated.
sassaboo - July 22, 2007 04:26 AM (GMT)
I grin, seeing her spirits brighten. As she comes to my side, I oh so casually resist the urge to nip at her, I wanted to claim her. I didn't want anyone else to get to her, especially insane psycopathic rogues like Hurricane. Besides, Riduna needed a Queen sooner or later. But knowing her, she had a free spirit and could easily reject me after all this time. For now I'll resist stubborn stallion instincts, but my auds flick back at mentioning Hurricane.
"I assure you, you'll never have to deal with him again. And as for any other forceful brutes that come along, I'll deal with them too. But the easist way for me to keep that promise, is if you accept my proposal m'love." What the hell was I saying?! I was acting like a love struck yearling, although to a certain extent, I was. It was a bit of a risk, but it was a risk I was by far willing to take. "Will you be my mate, as Queen of Riduna? Always above all other mares that would happen to be apart of my harem, never to be replaced."
Scrimpy - July 22, 2007 04:41 AM (GMT)
I looked over to him with suspicious eyes. To go to him or stay a bachelorette? Such a hard decision. Did he say queen? I like the sound of Queen Calla Lilly. Has a certain ring to it. But still I looked over to him. I couldn't do it. I just couldn't. Despite it all. I couldn't. I loved him, but enough to last us this long? I dunno.
I looked down at the white sand with an unsure look on my face. If I didn't do this, would I always be envying every mare that came near him, or would I be satisfied that I denied him the write to claim me? I glanced to him before looking back to the beach. I could imagen my brother out there shacking his head at my antics. Still it stings to think about him as a tear falls I whip it away with my hoof against my cheeck.
I let out a deep breath and look to Echelon with a sad face one. "I'm sorry Echelon," I began with my tone truly sorry. My amber and charcoal locks bounced in front of my blue eyes slowly as I watched hsi face. "But I can't..." I looked down to the gorund, knowing this was going to sting him, literally, before looking back to him. "I can't..... let you nip me first!" I finished the sentence with a cheesy smile on my tired face as I reach out to nip him in a way of saying yes. I'd never say directly to him in words. It's just too boring... "But yes, I accept."
sassaboo - July 22, 2007 05:02 AM (GMT)
My ears flick back as she looks to the ground, her expression depressing as she looks up to me again. I'm sorry Echelon... I can sense what is coming, lowering my own gaze to the water that has been surrounding our hooves with each wave. But I can't... I should have known, all the arguements we've been through, all the times she accused me as a dark, all the times we've been apart. I lower my dome slightly, still listening to her speak. My heart dropped, but at her next words it seemed to leap back up again.
I can't..... let you nip me first! I feel a nip at my side, looking up to her with her cheesy smile. Though I was happy she accepted, I was a little peeved that after finding her here collapsed, she would joke about rejecting me. I lift my crown again, trying to bring a smile, but I can't. My ears stay back, but I stay calm and force myself to keep my temper down. I sigh, letting my auds relax as I finally reach out with my muzzle, gently nipping her flank. Looking back to her eyes, I shake my head. "I can't believe you would joke about that. All this time of denying myself, having to be without you, and here you come and I finally admit to myself and you that I've fallen for you, thinking you felt the same, and then you turn me down, only to be mocking and accepting? Of all things to be joking about, your still a temptress toying with me."
Scrimpy - July 22, 2007 04:06 PM (GMT)
"The day that I come out clean without toying with someone is when hell breaks loose or I'm on my death bed. And for information, your the only one I toy with, Echy ," I said to matter-of-factly. I raised my tiara up with aregal face on as I eyed him with a thin smirk on my kissers. Old times again. I stuck my tounge out at him while rolling my eyes. "Besides you wouldn't love me if I was boring and like everyone else. That's what makes me fun. And you know it."
Does he think I'm going to stop teasing him now, after he's just admited that he fell for me? If he does, I've got some work to do. Looking to him with puppy eyes and leaned my head on him. He knows I love him, but maybe I'll give him some slack today. I feel pity for him, or is that sympathy. 'Bout the same, but well go with pity.
"I'll always be toying with you somehow, Echy. Always," I said to him as I took my head away. "Your my little demon, only you've got my heart." I looked up to him with a serious face this time. I hate admiting I was wrong, but I should. Looking back on it, it was fun, but cruel towards him. God, I hate being wrong. "Okay, it was wrong to tease you on that subject..." I said, truly sorry. "But I do love you, truly. And I accept, Echy." My eyes looked to him as I thought of one other thing to say in an attempt to cheer him up. "There was a song I heard before I came here that made me think of you when I did almost die. That I wasn't dead yet, but I was floating and couldn't rewrite the past. At first I hated the song becuase I knew I loved you, but I hated feeling insecure since I had thought you died. It's the most vulnerable part of me. I'm basically a winter flower beneath the snow and you were my crack of sun of that pushed me to make it spring and now all in the hopes of seeng you again if you understood all that mumble jumble.
sassaboo - July 23, 2007 12:07 AM (GMT)
"Five minutes ago you practically were on your deathbed," I smirked, my temper fading fast as I reached my muzzle to tug at her mane playfully after she stuck her tongue out at me. Little demon, eh? Another thing to add to my growing list of nicknames...
I smiled as she told me of the song, nodding to make a point that I understood her 'mumble jumble.' I knew it was hard for her to admit she was wrong, it was just part of who she was. "Yes, you are my flower. And you know me, the big fireball for a ray of sun." I joke, once more playing with her tresses before looking to the ocean. The water had raised halfway up to my knees, high tide was coming fast.
"We better be heading to the mainlands, there's a young stallion there that I've welcomed earlier." I say, starting to splash my way back to the shore, flicking my tassle to fling water off.
Scrimpy - July 23, 2007 12:26 AM (GMT)
I pulled my head away as he played with my tassels like some little colt. I snorted as he took off towards the mainland to see this stallion. Lifting my knees and moving my legs I began to move through the tide as well. By the time we'd get there, I'd would be wiped out. Oh well, at least Echy is happy and I as well. Things are actually starting to look up for once.
[x]moving to herd rp[/x]