Title: Show { M E } Love
Description: {Entering} Malaika {Seeking Solace}
Description: {Entering} Malaika {Seeking Solace}
Spirit Dancer - January 25, 2008 10:28 PM (GMT)
This was an accident,
Not the kind where sirens sound,
Never even noticed,
We're suddenly crumbling.
Tell me how you've never felt,
Delicate or innocent.
Do you still have doubts that,
Us having faith makes any sense?
Tell me nothing ever counts,
Lashing out or breaking down.
Still somebody loses 'cause,
There's no way to turn around.
Staring at your photograph,
Everything now in the past.
Never felt so lonely I,
Wish that you could show me love.
- Show Me Love by t.A.T.u.
Black rimmed audda rested back, into the wild mass of jet black curls that I was finally able to see. I now knew what what color I was, how tall I was, or even if I looked funny whenever I walked, or even at this current moment. I'd been blind since birth, but miraculously, managed to regain my eyesight through a concussion.
To others, my facade and frame showed signs of an Arabian lineage; due to my dished tiara and long, spindly legs that were charred black and graced with white socks so small they almost looked like small gloves. A blaze ran down my tiara, meeting a charred muzzle that had the faint traces of a long-lost laugh or two, and only a few white spots defaced my entire bay appearance from being perfectly symmetrical. Though, those diminutive spots made me more unique than my condition. As did the milky hues that still defined me as Malaika, even though I could see now.
Though, with the return of my sight, came a heavy price. I lost the acute degree of smell, touch, and hearing that I had before. I was now just an average equine, maybe a little above average with the whole smell, touch, and hearing sense, but otherwise no one would ever fathom that I'd been blind. Well, maybe they would, with how milky my blue violet pools were. And, to both my displeasure and delight, I was intrusted with a big responsibility. I was going to be a mother to the nameless stallion who'd abused me, and blessed me with sight and my coming child.
Faint traces of my pregnacy were showing - though too late for my liking. I knew mares were heavier than what I was at the stage I was at. I should of been heavier; a wider barrel to accomadate the life forming inside me. But I was feeling like I was failing horribly because I was succeeding, no matter how much I consumed. Had I miscarried? Heavens, anything but that! I was sure if I gave birth to a stillborn I'd cry and end up doing something I'd regret. Even if my child had a nameless father, and was forever branded a bastard child and shunned me from a herd for the rest of my life - he or she was still mine. They would be the reason I got up every morning, and went through the day with a fake smile and false cheeriness.
Maybe, though with slight doubt, things would be okay. I had some hesitancy about it though. I knew I was most likely welcomed back to the Forests; but a part of me didn't want to go back. I was already in shame, and I didn't need to be in it anymore than I already was. But what brute, King or not, would take a weak, abused, pregnant mare? They'd have to be a bloody 'Prince Charming' or completely dense to me condition to take me.
I shook my head slightly at the thought. Whatever Life decided to throw at me, I would adapt. Adapting was something I was good at anyways.
-FIN-
abbydoodle96 - January 26, 2008 01:18 AM (GMT)
My steel grey colored daggers carried my dappled grey body over the terrain, my silver audials back against my cranium. My dark brown opticals surveyed over the land and I came to a sudden halt. Yes, it was nice to get out of my land and explore sometimes, but I didn't usually do it.
I was just sad, and thought of myself as a failure. I had my own land, and my own herd, but not many herd members, as I had at least three mares leave it. Was I really that bad? At least I had one faithful herd member. My only mare, and the mare I was going to have a foal with; Michelle. Yet I still liked Laika for some reason, even if she was blind. She was just so hard to get along with, as she thought she was worthless because of her blindness.
I snorted and pawed at the ground for a moment, as I saw a mare that I thought I knew. She looked a lot like the one mare I wanted to see again; Malaika. I walked slowly over to her, hoping not to freak her out or anything. If it was Laika, I wouldn't want to annoy her by always trying to talk to her. Wait, she looked bigger. It couldn't be Malaika, as she was not pregnant...or was she?
"Hello," I said, coming to a halt a few feet away from the mare. I didn't introduce myself, as she might already know me, if it was Laika. I didn't call her by name, as it might not be her. 'Hello' was good enough to start a little conversation.
Spirit Dancer - January 26, 2008 04:29 PM (GMT)
I'd started to hum, determined to be on my way, since I had a sense of security in this place. I knew I had to get moving, however, if I was to find a home again. Atleast, those were my plans before black rimmed audda caught his salutations. The voice was familiar, instantly connecting it to Knight. A frown marrs my charred maw, as milky hues reluctantly tore themselves away from the beautiful scenery and blue sky towards the direction of the voice.
Never had I imagined that I was taller than him. Standing at 16.1 hands, I was a few inches taller than he. But he was also heavier with muscle mass; as I was built willowy because of my lineage. Audda remained pinned back, as I scrutinized him carefully - since this had been the first time, the only exception to my foal's nameless father, I'd seen another.
"Ciao, Silver Knight," I replied calmly, patiently waiting to see if he noticed the changes I'd gone through. I knew he couldn't miss my pregnacy's signs - but could he detect that my vision had returned?
Never had I imagined that I was taller than him. Standing at 16.1 hands, I was a few inches taller than he. But he was also heavier with muscle mass; as I was built willowy because of my lineage. Audda remained pinned back, as I scrutinized him carefully - since this had been the first time, the only exception to my foal's nameless father, I'd seen another.
"Ciao, Silver Knight," I replied calmly, patiently waiting to see if he noticed the changes I'd gone through. I knew he couldn't miss my pregnacy's signs - but could he detect that my vision had returned?
Translation:
1. Ciao
- Hello {Italian}
abbydoodle96 - January 26, 2008 05:01 PM (GMT)
I could definatally tell that Laika had somehow gotten pregnant, as it showed. Was she forced duing her absense away from the herd? Did she willingly breed to someone? Would she come back to my herd after the foal was born? I really hoped she would, but it was mostly her choice.
"Che è successo?" I asked, hoping she didn't mind to answer. I wanted to know what had happened while she was gone, and why she was pregnant with a foal. She might not tell me, as I didn't think she liked me, but it wouldn't hurt to ask.
I looked deep into her eyes for a moment, then looked at the ground, before looking at just Laika. Her eyes didn't look as cloudy as they did before, for some reason. Was she still blind? I decided to think nothing of it and not even ask, as I thought it would sound kind of rude to ask her if she was still blind. My audials perked up from being down against my silver cranium, and I nickered, looking around at the land for a moment, before looking back at Malaika.
"Che è successo?" I asked, hoping she didn't mind to answer. I wanted to know what had happened while she was gone, and why she was pregnant with a foal. She might not tell me, as I didn't think she liked me, but it wouldn't hurt to ask.
I looked deep into her eyes for a moment, then looked at the ground, before looking at just Laika. Her eyes didn't look as cloudy as they did before, for some reason. Was she still blind? I decided to think nothing of it and not even ask, as I thought it would sound kind of rude to ask her if she was still blind. My audials perked up from being down against my silver cranium, and I nickered, looking around at the land for a moment, before looking back at Malaika.
Translation:
Che è successo?
--What happened? [Italian]
Spirit Dancer - January 26, 2008 05:19 PM (GMT)
My Arabian dished tiara was held high, ignoring the shame I ought of been feeling at the moment. I decided, right there, that I wasn't going to be sorry for myself and wallow in self pity. I was going to hack through and make the best out of Life.
"Semplicemente? Quando ho andato, ero forzato," I replied, somewhat relieved - and somewhat surprised - that Knight, indeed, knew Italian.
"Dovrei del veduto di esso che viene, ma non ho fatto," I continued, chuckling softly at how foolish I'd been, before continuing, "Ma, malgrado la miseria che sono andato attraverso, io è stato benedetto ugualmente. Posso vederlo notare la mia gravidanza."
I paused, briefly, letting my blueviolet hues watch him carefully to see his reaction as I retold an edited version of my story.
"Inoltre sono stato benedetto con la mia visione. Posso ora vedere, Knight, ma è venuto con un prezzo alto.
"Semplicemente? Quando ho andato, ero forzato," I replied, somewhat relieved - and somewhat surprised - that Knight, indeed, knew Italian.
"Dovrei del veduto di esso che viene, ma non ho fatto," I continued, chuckling softly at how foolish I'd been, before continuing, "Ma, malgrado la miseria che sono andato attraverso, io è stato benedetto ugualmente. Posso vederlo notare la mia gravidanza."
I paused, briefly, letting my blueviolet hues watch him carefully to see his reaction as I retold an edited version of my story.
"Inoltre sono stato benedetto con la mia visione. Posso ora vedere, Knight, ma è venuto con un prezzo alto.
Translation:
1. Semplicemente? Quando ho andato, ero forzato.
- Simply? When I left, I was forced.\
2. Dovrei del veduto di esso che viene, ma non ho fatto.
- I should of seen it coming, but I didn't..
3. Ma, malgrado la miseria che sono andato attraverso, io è stato benedetto ugualmente. Posso vederlo notare la mia gravidanza.
- But, despite the misery I went through, I was equally blessed. I can see you've noticed my pregnancy.
4. Inoltre sono stato benedetto con la mia visione. Posso ora vedere, ma è venuto con un prezzo alto.
- I was also blessed with my vision. I can see now, Knight, but it came with a heavy price.
abbydoodle96 - January 26, 2008 05:31 PM (GMT)
I listened to Laika as she told me about how someone forced a foal onto her. Every mare had to be careful while out by herself without anyone to protect her, as Dark stallions would most likely come along and force her, as one did to Malaika.
"Lei può vedere adesso?" I said, smiling slightly. I was happy for her about that, but I couldn't tell if she liked having a foal inside her or not. "Ciò è grande. Che farà lei del puledro?" I suddenly thought that I shouldn't have asked that. Was wasn't any of my buisness, anyways. Still, I awaited her answer to my question, no matter how much she cared or not.
"Lei può vedere adesso?" I said, smiling slightly. I was happy for her about that, but I couldn't tell if she liked having a foal inside her or not. "Ciò è grande. Che farà lei del puledro?" I suddenly thought that I shouldn't have asked that. Was wasn't any of my buisness, anyways. Still, I awaited her answer to my question, no matter how much she cared or not.
Translation:
Lei può vedere adesso?
--You can see now?
Ciò è grande. Che farà lei del puledro?
--That's great. What are you going to do about the foal?
Spirit Dancer - January 26, 2008 05:45 PM (GMT)
"Sto andando mantenerlo, naturalmente!"
The anger that suddenly appears in my voice rings clear, as it does in my milky hues, and my stance. I stood riggid now, black rimmed audda pinned back into my wild mass of unkept black curls, bue violet hues glaring at Knight, shwoing my firey determination not to give up.
"Solo perché lui o lei non avrà un padre e colza, che non significo che sto andando appena lasciarlo morire!"
The anger that suddenly appears in my voice rings clear, as it does in my milky hues, and my stance. I stood riggid now, black rimmed audda pinned back into my wild mass of unkept black curls, bue violet hues glaring at Knight, shwoing my firey determination not to give up.
"Solo perché lui o lei non avrà un padre e colza, che non significo che sto andando appena lasciarlo morire!"
Translation:
1. Sto andando mantenerlo, naturalmente!
- I'm going to keep him or her, of course!
2. Solo perché lui o lei non avrà un padre e colza, che non significo che sto andando appena lasciarlo morire!
- Just because he or she won't have a father and I was raped, doesn't mean I'm just going to let him or her die!
abbydoodle96 - January 26, 2008 05:58 PM (GMT)
I snorted and began to paw at the ground, really annoyed by Malaika always yelling at him every time he tried to talk to her or he asked a question. I looked down at my silver daggers before looking back up at Laika, who was getting on my nerves.
"Grande," I began to say. "Sono contento che lei non l'ucciderà o lei." I suddenly began to wonder if she was going to come back to my lands, the Letriona Forest. I wanted so bad to ask her if she was going to return to the forests, but I decided not to. She might've yelled at me again.
"Grande," I began to say. "Sono contento che lei non l'ucciderà o lei." I suddenly began to wonder if she was going to come back to my lands, the Letriona Forest. I wanted so bad to ask her if she was going to return to the forests, but I decided not to. She might've yelled at me again.
Translations:
Grande
--Great
Sono contento che lei non l'ucciderà o lei.
--I'm glad you won't kill he or she.
Spirit Dancer - January 27, 2008 01:51 AM (GMT)
Black audda remain pinned back, though I was dangerously close to snarling at him, which may of been evident on my features. I wanted to blame it on my pregnancy; but that would be unjust of me to do. I knew half of it was that, though, and the other half was because I still hadn't accomplished anything. I hoped that by having my own foal, I'd be better about the whole herd scenario.
"So, when is Michelle due?" I replied offhandedly, my gaze adverted from him, trying my best to remain on my best behavior, and switching back over to English. Part of my departure from the Forest was because of such - which still made me slightly confused on it. I was okay with the one filly that was there...But hearing that another was coming, hearing Michelle practically yell it to the world, made me upset. Cursing my own insecurities, blue violet pools returned to Knight's face.
"So, when is Michelle due?" I replied offhandedly, my gaze adverted from him, trying my best to remain on my best behavior, and switching back over to English. Part of my departure from the Forest was because of such - which still made me slightly confused on it. I was okay with the one filly that was there...But hearing that another was coming, hearing Michelle practically yell it to the world, made me upset. Cursing my own insecurities, blue violet pools returned to Knight's face.
abbydoodle96 - January 27, 2008 02:57 AM (GMT)
Silver coulered audda perked up at her sudden question, but I wondered why she really cared. Maybe it was just to break the silence, or did she really care about the foal? I couldn't wait for Michelle's foal to be born, and maybe, if Malaika stayed, it would have a friend to play with.
"Early February," I replied, simply. Both Laika and Michelle would probably give birth soon, and I couldn't wait, even if Laika's wasn't mine. I was more excited for Michelle, obviously. "When are you due?" I asked, dark brown pools looking at Malaika's face, awaiting her answer.
"Early February," I replied, simply. Both Laika and Michelle would probably give birth soon, and I couldn't wait, even if Laika's wasn't mine. I was more excited for Michelle, obviously. "When are you due?" I asked, dark brown pools looking at Malaika's face, awaiting her answer.
Spirit Dancer - January 27, 2008 03:04 AM (GMT)
"Soon, most likely before Michelle," I replied, blue violet pools closed as I did so, recoiling at the remembrance of how soon I'd be a mother - and how underweight I was to be so close. Now I was very glad I'd gotten caught in some rain earlier on my travels, and managed to get muddy; because the mud hid the healing wounds and newly formed scars so much easier than explaining them befor eI was ready. "Any day now, is more like it."
[x] Sorry for the super shortness. D: [/x]
[x] Sorry for the super shortness. D: [/x]
abbydoodle96 - January 27, 2008 05:07 PM (GMT)
"Malaika," I began, still thinking wether or not to ask the question that I wanted to. I just really wanted to know if she was going to go back or not, so I decided to risk getting yelled at to ask my question. "Are you going to come back to the Forest, after the foal is born...?" I looked down at my dark colored daggers for a moment, getting ready to hear her answer. I perked my head up to look back at Laika's face. I really hoped her answer would be 'yes', but for some reason, I didn't count on it.
Spirit Dancer - January 28, 2008 09:31 PM (GMT)
I shudder as my lithe frame is racked with a sudden shot of pain.
'God, not now!'
Numbly, I nod my head just barely, trying with care not to get my forelock stuck to my face from the light coat of sweat that had started.
"Y-yes....I suppose so."
[x] Sorry for the super shortness. D: [/x]
'God, not now!'
Numbly, I nod my head just barely, trying with care not to get my forelock stuck to my face from the light coat of sweat that had started.
"Y-yes....I suppose so."
[x] Sorry for the super shortness. D: [/x]