Well, I don't know about you - but I suck at keeping a diary. When I'm in the pattern it's okay- but then I stop and it all grinds to a guilty halt.

So I thought a group diary - where we all post about our days when we feel like it would be nice.

My day has been talked about extensivley in "Grr", but there are two good things:

One: I got a Doctor Who Alarm Clock (sadly it doesn't make that fantastic "Whoo" noise) but it's damn nice to look at. One wonders whether I'll feel that was at half six tomorrow.

Two: Got the next three episodes of Doctor Who on DVD. I take great comfort in thinking that for every hour I was miserable this morning, the money I earnt in that time has been spent on that DVD.

So, in effect, the only good things about the day were Doctor Who. :rolleyes:

So is this like a daily journal thing? That's awesome. :)

Well, let's see... Nothing has really happened today that has been major, but I'll write about some stuff anyways.

Ok, I'm going to Boston this Saturday. :) Every year I go somewhere usually out of state.. Last year it was DC, the year before, Chicago, and the year before I went on a Cruise to Mexico. The year before I went to Disney World, and the year before, I went Skiing. So as you can tell, I go somewhere every year. Well, we didn't know where to go, but my mom and dad said Boston would be cool.. I'm all for that, because not only do I have friends there, BUT J.J. just went there, and seemed like she had a good time. So I was all for it. the Red Sox are playing Texas, so my brother liked it. So we're going there until like Wednesday. Not to mention I get to stop in Cincinnatti and Atlanta. Hopefully we'll fly over some major cities, like NYC, or Harvard, or something like that. Anyways, I'm glad we're going there, because I'm going to need to plan my future soon, and I want to live somewhere in the Northeast.. More liberal, and a nicer environment. I haven't been yet though, lol. so I'm real happy about that.

hmm, what else? Well, today has been SO boring.. Nothing to do. I woke up at 9:55 because some people called. I went to bed at 2:00 last night, because I was talking to a friend in Israel, and it was day time there. That was pretty interesting. We did a video conference, and so yeah..

there has been little major news in politics.. I'm sad, lol. Bush is trying to ban gay marriage, which is homophobic. I'm not gay or anything, but come on.. Let's not discriminate against certain groups, you know?

I've heard a lot about terrorists in Canada. It makes me wonder what this world is coming to. I never thought I would here of possible terrorists in Canada.. Canada is like a place people move to to escape terrorists. So that's sad.

I still miss anake.. I can't believe she just left so all of a sudden. She was the person who started half the posts, so it's always sad when someone that active leaves. I hope she will come back, but I think she even went as far as to get a new Yahoo! screen name. :( Has anyone heard from her?

Hmm, what else.. I need some more clothes. I have a good amount, but I haven't gotten clothes in like a month.. Maybe I'll do that son. Hopefully, lol

No shows are on in the summer. It sucks. I am going to need to watch FX and TNT I guess, because those are the only stations that have summer shows. Besides all the reality shows on the regular stations, lol.

So yeah, i don't really know what to write. I guess that's all lol.

You will like Boston. :D

I'm not going to get into the whole terrorist thing... Right now I'm fuming over the fact that some idiot thought it was cool to smash 28 windows at a mosque after they arrested the 'suspects'... Why not let the RCMP/Toronto police do their job... Everything will come out...

I will say this though, mess with my CN Tower and you're in BIG trouble! I LOVE the CN Tower and I don't think it would be Toronto without it... It's communication, a restaurant, and an underground playground (laser tag :D:D:D) but other then that... What's the point of blowing it up... We have other towers for communication... The financial stuff, they should have off site back up... so really in theory, things would be able to continue from the last backup... The security building... Hmmm... Well any security plans are also probably kept off site as well, so once again... What's the point... A little destruction? Mayhem, Chaos... Upset and scare a bunch of people?

The gay marriage thing will probably get me killed, but here goes: Harper is just as homophobic as Bush! He wants to revoke the Liberals bill and have another vote... I might sound naive, but I don't think it's right... The previous gov't passed a bill... If Harper gets his way, it will become an issue for the next gov't until someone finally puts their foot down... Just my opinion.

today has been pretty good for me...although the week has sucked...my boyfriend and i got through our little nitch thing...but...i cannot believe that Edmonton lost today!!!...that sucked but other than that...im HAPPY :D

This summer has been so boring, and I have a very low self esteem, so yeah.. It is uhhh. Nothing has happened today, it's just omg..

Well, I am so worried about my future, it's crazy. Like I'm beginning to plan my future, and it is so ridiculous. I have so much time lol.

About the terrorists again.. It's good that they stopped them. they prolly would have attacked either today, 6-6-06, even though i have my doubts, or some other time within the next few months. that would have been terrible.

Yeah, Harper is discusting. I can't stand him. Now every North American President is Conservative. Hopefully Mexico will change that this July, and hopefully America will in 2008.. Better yet, 2006. The Liberals and NDP will no doubt call for a unconfidence vote or whatever they call it in Canada. I think them, together with some Bloc members.. Canada can probably get a new PM, which is needed. It hurts me to think of it. uhhhh. lol

Besides that, I have a minor headache. I hate it. Ugh.

Anyways, I can't wait for Boston. What all did you do in Boston? You may have answered this, but idk lol

Today was kind of better.

I think I've figured out why I'm having such a hard time at work. My mother is dyslexic and when I was upset and telling her about the fact even though I know how to do stuff I just get it wrong anyway, she said that's exactly what she goes through and that maybe I am dyslexic.

I don't have a problem with reading or writing so much - but I have loads of other symptoms;

I have to really think about left/right. I have to actually look at the hand I write with to know that something is 'left'. It can take up to three or for seconds for me to figure it out.

I write numbers wrong - if someone reads out a phone number (eg; 01270 216125) I'll write 01270 215126 (one of these is actually my home phone number and I made the exact same mistake - my colleague actually phoned another house and got the wrong person leaving her with no way to contact me). This has got me into repeated trouble at work.

I also have real difficulty taking down messages - if someone called Tim Phillips calls from Merton. I'll note down Tim Merton by mistake. That's the sort of thing that got me into real trouble the other day.

I have problems speaking at times - I'll say "curtains" when I mean "blinds", or "yes" when I mean "no", and today I honestly couldn't tell my dad what I meant. I was trying to tell him to shut the sunroof on the car because I was being blasted with cold air and I honestly couldn't think of a word to describe it. I was pointing and getting worked up and I just couldn't say anything.

I also can't actually listen to instructions and understand them all. If you give me more than one instruction at a time if I don't fully get it straight away I get flustered and I need it repeated and repeated - obviously at work that's a liability as people can't keep explaining simple things.

It means I have to be really, really careful with everything I do now on. But that means taking more time and I don't get that luxury at work.

On the other hand I feel relieved because I've really honestly thought I was stupid all this time - to know something but not be able to do it and getting the simplist of instructions wrong.

But I've not been diagnosed as yet - so I can't tell anyone. I might not even have it after all - but considering both my parents have learning difficulties (my mum dyslexia, my dad dyspraxia) it was probably a bit foolish to not consider something like this before. It has given me back a little confidence - knowing that it might not be totally my idiocy.

In other newsa - today has been the first really warm day of the year, work wasn't too bad now I know I'm not a complete moron. It was my supervisor's 25th b.day. We got him some Rose and a card that says "Being dignified is hard work...it takes years to gain respect and confidence...and a couple of vodkas to completey reverse the process...Happy Birthday!"

Watched a Doctor Who (cheered me up quite a bit, that). Ate a peanut butter kit kat and then came on here. Oh and my dad tidied my room for me to cheer me up (I'm not messy - but a load of stuff had to be moved in there and the place looked like a tip). Had my first Cherry Coke (wasn't impressed). :lol:

I don't quite know if this is the place to post this... Or not...

I happened upon Yahoo's "dating service"... Now it's been quite a while (I managed to keep myself VERY busy and in doing so, the whole dating thing has totally fallen by the wayside... I'm kind of I don't know... I'm not totally anti-social because if I were, I wouldn't have gone to Boston alone... But I do like my alone time.... I'm maybe overly independent in that sense.

Anyways, it made me wonder if I should try it...My co-worker thinks I should... At the very least "I'd know what it is to be alive", or something like that... To me however, posting online is shy of a personal ad in the newspaper... Yes, I'd like to meet new people (I'm growing ever so tired of "being one of the boys"... Seriously... I go out with the crew and I'm nearly always the lone female (not a big deal... till people stare)...

Any thoughts on this, or should I just bite the bullet (it's 2006, as my father keeps reminding me)...

*I'm not Bridget Jones (yet)... No offence I love that movie ;)

today was just really...blah...booooooooring...i didn't have work today..which was a relief because i really didn't want to be stuck in a hot studio...so...i went to the beach with some friend which was fun so...it was a cool day...






p.s Emmylou...im partially dyslexic...you get used to it after awhile and soon it starts to get better...at first i was WAY dyslexic and the words and stuff just kept moving when i tried to read them so...it gets better :D

Well J.J., you can always try, even though you never know what to really expect with online dating. Half the people act way different in real life. I hear Toronto has a great night life.. Why don't you go to a bar or a club, meet some people, and see how it goes from there? lol.

To Emmy... Sorry to hear that. It'll probably get better. :) Hopefully.

ac500 - I know what you are saying when you say it's boring. It is SO boring here too.

I can't go to downtown and enjoy that, because I don't yet have a car. I can't just get up and go to the mall. Not to mention I would prolly only go by myself, which would be really weird. Basically, I wake up at 10:00, take a shower, watch TV for an hour, get on here for a few hours, and that's my day. I was going to start exercising, because I'm not all that far from getting abs.. If I could just loose a little weight. It's really hot though, and yes, people say that's the best time to exercise, because you sweat, but I'm sorry.. I would rather exercises in 50 degree weather, which is 10 degrees Celsius, then run in 90 degree weather, which is 32 Celsius.

Anyways, I have yet to exercise. Unless walking my dog counts, I'm not exercising.

This summer has been more boring then I thought, and I've had a lot on my mind, but thankfully I will be going to Boston soon, and hopefully I will be doing some more stuff. However, a lot of my friends are not here.. Of course I have one friend in Braintree England.. She left I think early this morning, so she'll prolly get there later. My grandparents are in Germany, on some 2 or 3 week European tour. My other friends live in the suburbs, because I go to school in the suburbs. So I'm stuck here, being bored. As we all know, I have lost Anake :( to talk to, and my Israeli friend rarely gets on anymore, and so all I really talk to besides my friends from school on here. I've been listening to my iPod which is great, but I haven't been listening to the AM/FM radio stations.. Therefore, I don't really know all the newest songs lol.

So there's my daily blabbering lol.

Yeah Kyle, we do... It's just not my scene... It's been a couple of years since I went to and over 30s club (It was my friends b-day and she was turning 30)... Some chap tipped his drink down the back of my legs... Not my idea of fun! The online dating is scary (at least I think so, but you never know unless you jump)... But then again, this month is totally booked! So I'll just put it off till next month.

Let's see... Today was Wednesday right??? I was a bit off because CM was on at 9pm last night (Derailed), which will probably re-air tonight... So it felt more like a Thursday and I was sooo not in the mood for time to stand still...

I did show my photos to my co-workers and the big boss... (One of them said she now understands my Patinkin thing... Seeing him in the photograph rather than on television I guess... I don't know)

I'm off to do the Tae Bo :D :D It's a great way to burn off the energy sitting at a desk pretty much all day can leave you with...

I have also finally been able to take fingers to keyboard and have what I hope to be a good CM piece by the time I'm through... I've just killed off the tenth victim in a "three week cycle" --> At least that's how my un-sub appears to operate... I won't know for sure until I'm finished (and its a bit of the gory side... I have no idea what's wrong with me)...

I hope that I'll be able to sleep tonight... I haven't really been sleeping since before I went on my trip... Insomnia usually doesn't last this long and I don't want to take anything for it because then that becomes a habit/routine that I don't want/need to get into.

that's very true about the nigh scene thing.

Right now, I have no self esteem what so ever. If there was a level of 0 - 100, 0 being no self esteem, and 100 being a whole lot, i would be prolly an 8. I am so down right now. I hate it so much.

Watch out for ranting and swearing, also possible teenage ranting..

Pretty much at the moment I'm annoyed at how childish my father is... Whenever I do something he considers to be "wrong" or "disrespectful" he doesn't talk to me for a certain number of days. Another thing is that whenever I do something stupid (like not doing anything) he tells me to grow up and stop acting like a teenager, I'm fifteen I've yet to be a teenager. The only thing he'll ever talk to me longer than a minute is how crappy his work is and how stupid his co-workers are, etc. Well grow up yourself and take some f#¤%ing action!

My father thinks I want attention. It's sad because I literally see things that aren't there, mostly blood spatter and footprints and it freaks me out. All he says is that he tried getting attention like that when he was young and it didn't work then so it isn't going to work now...

I realised that watching my father react to different things was funny and I'd write them down, but looking back it used to be pretty serious. Verbal "abuse" (dunno if I should call it that) it's as bad as someone hitting you, but anyway. Some stuff that I noted down was that when I was fourteen and said that I couldn't wait to move out when I'm 18 he answered, "You're allowed move out when you're sixteen, I can't wait 'til then!" Another time he said that I couldn't always expect things to be there for me, like dinner and the Internet and that I was a "stupid-spoiled-brat" who has to stop living like a parasite and get a job so I could earn my own money. I've had enough of this c¤%p!

And my so-called friends are all moaning about how "bad" their families are, one girl called her family dysfunctional because she had to help her dad pay the bills on the Internet because he didn't know how to use the computer... <_<

But "orka" (as we say in Sweden, translates to "bother") I've only got to put up with this for another three years and then I'm going to the UK...

On a lighter note I'm in LOVE with the lighter I bought in Prague! It's amazing! *huggles lighter*

Hey. Sorry to hear about your dad. It must be hard to be called a "stupid brat." Anyways, I'm about your age, and being a teen is very hard. Parents just don't realize that do they? Anyways, what lighter did you buy in Prague? lol.

If you ever want to talk abut anything, I'm here.. AIM - kjf512 Yahoo! - kjf512 and MSN passport - kjf512@yahoo.com

While we don't get to choose them, they are the ones who are always there for us no matter how dire a situation. I remember my parents telling me that I could always go home (No matter what trouble I got into)... And as I got older I think I really began to understand them a lot better (they are exactly 20 years older than me, so we actually have some things in common, go figure!)... I know that the teenage years suck (been there, done that... have the scares [emotional and otherwise] to prove it... Well that's only because its really the in between time...

As young people you're emerging from childhood into adulthood... Figuring out who you are (if you don't already know), pushing and or breaking through boundaries etc... Hang in there. You'll come out of it in once piece (at the very least)... You just have to be strong, choose your battles wisely, and do it in a diplomatic manner ;) My dad used to do the silent treatment thing too (then I'd just remind him of the fact that you should never leave the house angry, because you just never know...

Another tip that I found that worked (don't yell back!!! it's very immature and in my experience, only makes matters worse… Maintaining your cool in any situation is always the better way… [He can’t have an argument with himself right?])... I guess in a very round about way I'm saying be the mature one ;)

Oh and active listening, paraphrasing and all that jazz (reverse psychology if you have to, is also a beautiful thing)... and the good old "I see what you're saying, however"... works wonders...

Vert true.. As much as parents may seem they hate you, they really love you inside.... Some parents don't realize that until their kids moves out for college or something.

Anyways, well, today has been pretty good. That al Qidea guy was killed, which is great, but I still hope that no one now approves Bush.. The media is going to make it seem like it's so poistive that he died, and don't get me wrong.. It is... However, do you think those terrorists always listen to these top terrorist officials? NO. Half the people in Iraq haven't heard from Osama in forever. al Qidea isn't a group that someone has to register to. No. It's a group where if you hate America, and believe in radical ideas, you get your gun, and go out. I predict that the war violence is only going to get worse. The troops are going to be so happy, and sadly, taken by surprise when more terrorist attacks occur, and they recrit a new person.

Anyways, set aside from wars.. I feel better about myself today, lol. Idk why, but I do. Lately, well, for the past 2 weeks I have felt sort of deppressed.

BOSTON IN 2- DAYS! YAY! lol. I wish that Mandy Patikin was still there, and you could buy tickets there, or I would see it lol. Not to mention I get to stop in Atlanta on the way back which is awesome. Even though we'll only be there for a few hours, it's nice just to be there, lol. I also get to see Cincinnatti Ohio which is cool. Of course, my pets aren't going to be going. :( My pets are like my kids, lol. Oh well, because they will be in EXCELLENT care. I just feel bad, because one of my dogs birthdays in on the 13th, and guess what? I'll be in Boston, lol. So yeah, Emmylou and J.J. will be in charge of the board while I'm gone, and they've done excellent jobs. So yeah, i'm not worried.

Well, the domain for this board is FINALLY back up. I renewed it yesterday, and it didn't renew until like this morning. So yeah, tha'ts a relief, because it was taking so long.

My life has been so boring, there is nothing to really say. Of course we miss Anake, and Anake, if you EVER read this, please come back. Yes, I accidently deleted your name, but I swear it was an accident. I was trying to get it to not say you were moerator, and I thought that would work.. Hah, I was wrong.

Oh, back to the dad thing, lol.. My dad is a pig. He is so messy. He doesn't pick up after himself. It's discusting. MY ma and I get so sick of having to clean up after his s*it, but any time we say something, he fires back at some mess we've made a year ago, that goodness forbid he had to clean. Hah, yeah...

Well.... That's all my ranting for now. :)

Kinda depressed.

My mum was very upset yesterday because she had to clear out her mum's things and now she's tired and miserable.

It didn't help that my dad was more interested in the football;

He actually said to me in greeting;

"Hi Em, your mum's upset and we still don't know the Wayne Rooney situation".

World Cup Fever has gripped the nation. Every other advert has a football theme, every other conversation is about "Will Wayne Rooney make it?" *gag*

Meanwhile my job satisfaction is at an all time low. Me and Alison basically sat in our seats whining for the whole hour the bosses were out.

Our main points were:

*We are made to feel like little girls. I'm only eighteen and so while being called a "good girl" by our supervisor is not too bad (if irratating) for me, Alison is in her forties and old enough to be our superviser's mum so it understandably irratates her.
*The pay is low. Everyone says it I know, but it really is low here. I work 9 to 5 and take home just under £600 pounds a month which is minimum wage. When I started (before thet had to pay me minimum wage) I only made £445. Alison is much higher up than me and she makes not too much more.
*There are NO perks. Not one. There are three flights of stairs up to our office, the parking is expensive, the local food shops are expensive, the cleaner doesn't clean our desks, we aren't respected, they wouldn't even arrange a hire car for Alison although they were quick to arrange one for their own holidays.
*Our boss is so full of it it's not funny. (He's the one who sent me a nasty email about my mistakes). He's practically a Millionaire, owns the company, lives on a country farm, and does so much work that I don't think he sleeps. When you meet him it's sort of like meeting a celeb you don't like very much. You are kind of awed by him while privately think that he's totally up his own arse. He acts like I'm invisible and a stupid little girl. I feel like screaming sometimes "WTF do you know about ME?!! You grew up in a privaliged home, went to posh schools and a posh university, and never were without anything in your whole life! While I, this nobody, have grown up never knowing where our next money is coming from, gone to no less than SEVEN crap schools, and was bullied so badly I left before my exams so I don't even have any hope of getting into college and now I might just have Dyslexia. So you're shouting at me because of a learning difficulty that I can't even tell you about because you'll sack me or soemthing and you're treating me like dirt because I'm poor and your not. How does that make you better than me?"
* The total hypocricy in the office. One rule for the boys, another for the girls. If the girls want to talk we have to do it over the phone to keep the noise down - while the boys can talk freely across the office. The boys can spend as much time at lunch as they like while the girls are timed so they don't spend one minute longer than our 1/2 hour out there.

<_<

Sometimes I wonder why I go in in the morning.

I'm also pissed because I've got a free consultation about Dyslexia and my mum is convinced it's a scam and that I'll be ripped off. I don't care right now - I just need to know whether I am or not.

I know I'm ranting a lot of late but it's like nothing in my life is on my side recently. Everyone is either depressed or out to get me.

And Kyle - don't feel low about yourself. For everything I've seen of you, you're an absolute *sweetie*.

Hey, and thanks Emmy.

Yeah, everyone loves the World Cup.. I guess America is the only country that Soccer isn't big in. 75% of the people down here root for Mexico, 10% for like Ecuador or Bolivia, and then 5% for some Europe team, and the other 10% for America.. I think that adds up to 100% lol. all I knwo is that Mexico is by far the most popular team here.. Beating America.

Oh, and for other people outside of America and Canada... Soccer to Americans is the game you play with your feet, which you guys call Football.

Football is the game where you throw the ball, and have touchdowns. You guys call that soccer I'm guessing.

*wow* America is sooo different from the rest of the world. Different temperature system, different metric system, different names.. It's amazing, because I talk to a friend in Israel, and half the time he says "that makes no sense." America is wierd, but we're slowly but surely changing to be like the rest of the world.

World Cup fever is over here too! :D

I have three teams to root for, so that's cool (even though I know only 2 of them would have a chance)... I've been seeing those car flags pop up everywhere (It's sooo cute! and fun to work on Yonge Street and hear all the car horns when their teams win)... Thank goodness for on demand, I shant miss a game :D


Let's see... Hmmmm... Today was a loooong day :( and not very busy, but we got a lot of the behind the scenes stuff done, which is good... and getting some new product stuff happening... We'll see how that goes...

I'm sooo glad that it's Friday tomorrow!!! I'm going to the Book Expo this weekend and I'm going to some con next weekend to meet Ellen Muth!! (My brother wants to go, so I said I'd go with... Hmm... He wouldn't go with me to Boston to meet Mr. Patinkin... but seeing that I'm on the Ellen Muth forum as well, I said I'd try and get there... Maybe I'll get her to sign my Dead Like Me cap :D

I am SOOOOO excited for the world cup!!! and yes...go BRAZIL!!! anyhoo...i had yet another booooooring day of teaching...bleh...im really thinking of quitting that job...i dont hate it...but i dont have that...drive for it anymore...i dunno...cuz that pays for half my rent too and i cant be up at the mountain all the time because my life's down here...such a dilemna...


on a sad side...for me anyway...my neightbour whom ive known ALL MY LIFE is leaving to Alberta on Sunday...tear tear.. :unsure:

other than that...its been a pretty plain and un-exciting day for me...

Sorry to hear that A.C.. Where is your neigbor moving to?

Medicine Hat, Alberta..at least if it were in Edmonton, Calgary or Banff, i could take a road trip to visit him...but MH is way up north in Alberta so...

Will you be able to keep in touch via email? Snail mail? etc...
(My best friend moved to Montreal and sometimes we happen to see each other on MSN and have a conversation... It's as though we haven't lost touch [I've known her since high school])...

Let's see TGIF! :D:D I can't believe I survived this week! I'm finding myself very warn down... Wonder if I'm missing something in my diet? I'm not really sleeping either, so I hope to get some shuteye over the weekend (in between the football and Book Expo and the writing).

Germany won their opening game! B) and England plays tomorrow morning :D

we probably could...but its not the same as being able to walk over to his place anytime i wanted...and its another face missing up on the mountain




lets see....today i went to work...dealt with an angry parent because their kid failed an exam...almost got fired from my mountain boss...again...and yeah...on the upside, i got a HUGE raise for when i head back up there again....so that kinda makes up for it all which makes my one very happy girl :D

What teams are you rooting for JJ.

The whole country's gone mad - England's first game today.

I'm rooting for England (of course), Germany and Ukraine (even though I was surprised to see them in there).

I hear its between Brazil, England and Germany... We'll have to see. I should go and see what the score is in the England game. I think it's started over here...

*Editing myself (in avoidance of a double post)

Just started the crazy task of moving my office! Holy cow the crap that one keeps!! I'm sooo going to invest in a shredder (can't really recycle paper that's been printed on both sides with my writing on it, now can I?)... Cannot wait until I'm finished! I just got this heavy television unit thingy taken apart (had some help), and poof! Lots of space suddenly opened up... Now will be the ho hum job of dismantling my computer and the desk and moving them into their new home... When I reassemble everything, I better still have internet, or I don't know what I'll do! (every time I move something, something goes wrong... So we'll see... I'll be 'quiet around here for a couple of hours at least', if you don't hear anything from me after 9pm send help! I'm probably on the phone with Bell)...

Well, let me see - considering I have a shedload of housework to do I stiill spent yesterday (and will probably spend most of today) boosting Mandy's vote count over at the Celeeb site lol.

Got up this morning, went to Church where my very important job is to sing with the organist whilst keeping an eye on the priest so i can keep them both in time with each other lol. Doesn't always work which can be very funny... :D

Kyle, don't worry about the self-esteem thing :) I can guarantee that whatever you think your bad points are, nobody else will even have noticed cos believe it or not, everybody is too interested in their own lives and their own shortcomings to pay too much attention to what other people believe are their own (if that makes sense). Having said that, LSE is a teenage/early twenties thing and it will change, I promise. I didn't have any self-esteem until I was in my mid-twenties and then when I hit thirty it seemed like things had changed overnight and I suddenly realised I didn't give a monkey's about what anyone else thought and was actually very proud of myself. It's hard to believe but you do reach a point around 30 where you become yourself.

There's an old quote somewhere which I can't quite remember but it goes something like: "We spend our teens trying to be someone we're not, our twenties trying to find out who we are and our thirties being who we want to be." :D

JJ - I'm in a similar boat - all my friends are paired off, mostly with kids and suddenly I find myself with not a whole lot of social options. It's especially hard for teachers cos the hours are so long. I looked at the whole internet dating thing too but, I dunno, it all seems a bit false. I'd rather meet someone in a bar or something.

Anyhoo :)

yea...not so into the internet dating thing either...you could always try speed dating...but that can be SOOOOO unbelievebly (sp?) awkward.



anyway...this morning i got up to watch the Netherland and Montegro game...it was pretty good...Robben was of course, rockin my socks off...and thats basically been my day so far...world cup, world cup, world cup...yes...im VERY busy on sundays... :P

I've just had an amazing time (alone) at the Book Expo!!!
It was fantastic!! There are soooo many different publishers/distributors/etc. that it was very jam packed (although I'm going to have to have a word with my friend who said the he had to be there [with the publishing house he's working for... Didn't see him]).. Ah well... I made sure to check out everyone and got some really neat free stuff and literature pertaining to what kind of books the companies publish, how long they have been around etc.... If you ever see the Upstart Crow Publishing... They do sporty Canadian adaptations of Shakespeare you'll die!! It's soo cute! The guy belongs to a theatre troop and is a high school teacher (they wanted plays that had more parts…. So he fixed that problem:

Shakespeare's Rugby Wars
Shakespeare's World Cup
Shakespeare's Gladiator Games
Shakespeare's Comic Olympics
Shakespeare's NHL

More info can be found at this link:
http://www.upstartcrow.ca/ucp/index.html

They look so cute! :D

Other then the Book Expo, today is a beautiful, sunny day and I really should be outside.... But I'm not. :D Oh well.... I hope that everyone else is having an amazing day too! :D

Speed dating?? What's that like?

Today's been great - Dan's got the week off so everyone is calmer and getting on with things. Plus as Dan no longer sit's behind me I can sneak onto the internet,

My mum sent be a Yahoo greeting with a Doctor Who theme and I've still not stopped tingling from the episode on Saturday.

Life is good.

Well not really.

The Doctor Who aspects of it are anyway.

Let me just elecudate - when I said today was okay I didn't mean I don't want to be at home.

Just clearing that up.

There's something wrong in the world of Emma-Louise Samuel when she wants to be at work. <_<

Basically I burnt my skin badly in the sun, but really what was I expecting? I just hope that it's not going to be this red on Wednesday for the graduation-cermony-thingy. At least it isn't as bad as the Italy-burn from last year.

Aw, Titantic was on TV last night - I was bawling like a baby by the end of it. I had mascara lines down to my chin, face red and eyes puffy I swear my mother thought I'd lost it completely or something. Actually I was crying by the time Jack wins the tickets (for those who haven't seen it in a long time/at all: it's about thirty/forty minutes into the film). I love that film... -_-

Other than that life's good. Got two more days of school and then I never have to go back to that school inparticular, eleven years is enough. Three more of "high school" after that (grade 10, 11, 12) and then I'm free to do whatever I want (most likely some further education in the UK).

At the moment I've got nothing to do, probably going to watch the Bourne Supremacy or something.

17 days 'til the London Film & Comic Con.

Happy Monday everyone!

Happy thoughts just doesn't always cut it! Actually, running through the door would be a viable solution at this particular moment. Things are crazy enough as it is, we don't need power going to peoples heads. I must be on something to think that things would have gone on as they had (does that even make any sense?? Probably not, but in this case, nothing really does)... Well except the pretence of free will; an argument that I'm not even going to try and explain.

So that's my twisted week plus today on the job front in a very cryptic nutshell... Who knows? Maybe tomorrow will be better... :) Gosh! It better had! Else I'll go mad! Although I have a feeling, I'm probably teetering on that very concept at this point in time. The imbalance of still being sooooo happy, mixed with the crazy stressors that tick you off for all of thirty seconds... Cool, Calm Ocean... Say that five times in your head... Never mind, it never works...

Oh well, hope everyone else is having a good one ;)

At least I have this weekend to look forward to right?… Well I have to survive the week first.

You have to be at least what? 1/4 sane to recognise that you’re losing it... Right?

Well, that was a long and not-too-dreadful day. I survived.

I'm really tired now, though.. and my contacts are bugging my eyes.

What happened today, anyways? Well, I worked (teaching horseback riding lessons), I went out with friends for a late lunch, worked some more, then came home. I was home at some other point in there, too. Oh, and I bought a candle for my friend who is going to be moving away across the country on Friday. Other than that.. hmm.. watched Criminal Minds.. called my grandma.. oh, yeah.. I had a nosebleed, too. My mouth still tastes metallic, like iron. I wish MGG would post something on his site. He hasn't posted since like April. LOL.. oh, I also made graphics for my (younger) friend's school project for her.. lol. I really like the way one of them turned out, which is weird for me. I never like my work. Anyways, I have a random craving for cotton candy. Stupid doctors messing up my eating.. making me fast for 24 hours.. I always get the randomest cravings after having to fast for blood tests. That was yesterday, though. I have a bruise on one arm from the nurse cuz she messed up.. then she had to do the other one cuz she lost my vein. LOL. Sometimes I wish I could just do the darn thing myself. Oh, well. Oh, MySpace. What would the world do without you..

I'm rambling, obviously, as usual, so I shall head off to bed. Luv and huggles to all. Have sweet dreams of fuzzy glow-worms. Doesn't that sound nice? :)

Oh god, I'm sooo bored.

Momentous occasion yesterday. The first time I've changed my desktop image since I begane working here almost 18 months ago.

It's been a misty mountain at sunset for all that time. Now it's a dark and very awesome TARDIS.

I also changed my home one to a Doctor Who one of Rose and the Doctor stepping out o the Tardis next to a snowy Christmas tree, with him in his stripy pyjamas (he saved the world in them in the Christmas Special).

The perfect desktop for June... :rolleyes:

ummm...its still morning over here...so ill talk about yesterday :D ...

so...i got up ...went to work...dealt with yet ANOTHER angry parent that thought that it was MY fault that their kid failed their exam...i mean...i prepared him for it and everything...the kid NEVER practiced...and its my fault...anyway...after work, my boyfriend picked me up...we went out to dinner and i made him watch criminal minds with me :D We got into a semi argument on who would win the World Cup and that was basically my day :)

Things were really shaping up into an awesome day.

Our boss and male workmate were going out of the office on business until two. Other male workmate is off on holiday leave.

That leaves us three girls with bugger all to do and all day to skive off by reading, talking, painting nails etc.

Now *normally* I'm not a skiver, I do my job, I do my duty. But with this dyslexia thing (which no one will offer me any help with at ALL and until I'm tested)

Anyway, long story short, they're coming back in an hour because our boss has accidentally lost all of his paperwork. So no rest, jst work.

Typical!

I have used this little remaining time to get onto some people who could possibly help me with this dyxlexia;

1. Called Connexions. Woman their was abrupt and rude. She said that there was no cure so did it matter if I was tested? She said that if these things were giving me issues then why should I continue working in a job where I needed to use them? But what the HELL am I supposed to do? Quit and become a builder? Of course I'm going to need these skills at some point so YES IT DOES MATTER!

2. Called a helpline Connexions cow gave me. No answer. Only opens on a Wednesday. Seems to be part of a college and as I'm not in education that buggers that up.

3. Called some other centre. Costs £300 for one two hour test. Can't afford that.

Hmph. Then to top it off the headline on my email homepage is "Billie leaves Doctor Who".

I mean, I already *knew*, but's it's hardly a cheering thought.

Talk about kicking someone when they are down.

My dad's got an interview today. He *has* to get it because we can't sink any lower.

Honey, I've been where you are. I remember a time when all three of us...my mother, father, and me...were out of work at teh same time. Life sucked, but it came around. Trust me. It'll get better. Our good thoughts are with you.

Cat

Thanks Cat,

Dad did quite well at the interview, but as it was only with an Agency who'll pass the info on there's no garuntee what will happen.

Anyhoo, Saturday! Doctor Who tonight and no work today. *Awesome*

I just realised how busy my summer's going to be. :(

First I'm going to London on the 30th, then we're off to the summer house for "quality family time" for two weeks, then it's three weeks with my cousin before I have a week of this maths-course-thingy that my parents are sending me on.

Eugh! I don't want to... <_<

Summer holidays are for sleep and not using any kind of higher brain functions.