Sorry I just…needed to write this:
My mom is, as you guys might know, mentally sick and even though she's now better then well about a month ago when she wouldn't even dress herself, she still is pretty out of it.
I came home today and well it's freezin' today also in my home, so I kept my jacket on.
She comes telling me I should put on a sweater if I'm cold and that I shouldn't wear my jacket in house and I was like well, it's my own bussiness and my sweaters are colder then my jacket and I already have a cold…
So I go make myself a fried egg and eat it while watching Will and Grace…she comes, does the tv out, goes yelling at me to take out my jacket and well, I do not take orders, no ones, so I said no and she goes yelling a little bit more and I just decide that I go ignore her. So I do that and then suddenly she comes and gives me a push! And well I tell her to take her hands of me. And then she goes hitting me (not really hard, well for her at least but still) so I give her a shove back and then she comes in a 'psycho' state and starts hitting whatever she can hit and well I wait it out and then go get something to drink and go upstairs.
While I get the drink she comes crying and yelling at me that it's her house so her rules and I tell her I don't listen to someone who's crazy and then I go upstairs.
Then five minutes later she comes upstairs and tells me to place an add to sell my dog Kadin and my cat Joli, well I tell her I'm not going to do that, they're my pets.
Then she calls my father and he talks to me telling me I should be nicer to my mother (the damn guy cheats! how can he talk about being nice seriously!) and that he's going to sell Kadin.
So I tell him if he does that I'm going out house to (and tell him 'do you think that will be good for mom's health?'…she kind of has this overprotective worry thing also at the moment), those animals are the only reason I can like cope, mean my mom is well…she's always a bit like this, not sick like now, but pretty though to be around and my brother is autistic and everything.


And I get I could be nicer to her, but I've dealt with this for years, when I was fourteen she tried to stabb me with a knive, when I was twelve I wasn't alowed to go inside, when I was nine she tried to kill herself, when I was seven she got rid of my first dog (who was sick, just like me back then and my parents brought to my grandparents because my mom couldn't cope with both me and the dog sick, my dog died and I have never been able to say goodbye) I kind of am fed up with her and everything here and my pets really are the only things I like about my home and if they take that away…

Anyways, sorry about the rant, I'm actually not very down, I just well…pissed a little at her.

Ik ben nooit goed in dit soort dingen geweest. Heeft je moeder wel eens hulp gezocht? Mischien moet je het aan Pam vragen, want altijd als ik een probleem heb dan helpt zij mij altijd. Ik vindt het wel ontzettend rot voor je, ik zou je dieren maar in je kamer laten als ik jou was!

Zondag heb je wat afleiding, want met mij kun je altijd lachen (tenminste dat hoop ik) :)

tnx, well the pets are from the whole family, so they can come everywhere, and my mom, she sees a psychiatrist and has three different types of medication:
one for her thyroïd, one to be able to sleep and some type of anti schizophrenic medication (she's not schizo, just sometimes the symptomes are pretty simular and both illnesses are in fact for life…)

en zondag is zeker een afleiding. ;)

Luna,
I hope things will get better with your mother.... Just take it one day at at time and while she is in the state that she is in. I would try not to make her too mad or anything.. You never know what could happen if she does really hurt you the next time try to find a relative or something that could help you out and if worse comes to worse call the police.. No adult no matter what their mental state should raise a hand to a child or family member...
I'm thinking about you and saying a prayer for you....

I hope that helps a little

yeah well problem is since I'm now 'all grown up' my dad expects me to be like perfect daughter for her and I just can't just always do that, it might sound really mean but: I would sometimes rather have her hospitalized for a while, it would make things…easier you know

Anyways I'll probably hardly see her this weekend, so I'm of all this problems untill monday…

Aw, Irene! *hugs*

That really sucks. And you've dealt with some hellish things! I'm surprised you're still able to actually go home!

And no, you shouldn't feel horrible for sometimes wishing your mum was hospitalized - that's a lot to deal with, no matter what age you are. Do you have a close family friend, or reletives nearby that you can go to, maybe even for a little while? Or get someone to help out? And yes, like Val said, worse comes to worse, call the police. You don't have to put up with physical violence, regardless who the adult is, or what their mental state is.

Also, always remember that us guys are here if ya ever need an ear. Its not a lot, but as least you've got someone to scream to. Does your school/collage/workplace offer a councellor session, or something? It may be a good idea to talk to someone, someone unbiased, taht you can really scream to. I'm seeing my collage councellor over, admittedly, pretty minor stuff, but it's made me feel so much better knowing there's someone impartial to speak to.

*hugs* We're here if ya need us, I know it's not a lot, but other than flying over to ya (trust me, I'd love to!) it's the best we can do. *hugs*

You are all better therapists then me, because I never know what to say!

lol, I'm not normally, I just ramble, until something good comes out. We'er's our resident board theriopist when we need her? :P ;)

Hugs back Jemma!
And to me you'll are good therapists people ;) I think if people just care it well kinda goes…
It was today already better, we discussed the whole Kadin thing again and now he's going to stay with someone we know (we don't have someone yet, but I'm going to ask around a bit) for about two weeks and then we take it from there…but I still kinda squeezed him tight today, he is always well…my not so favorite one (he's stupid, like today we were playing and I was holding a toy in one hand and the idiot bites in my other arm…not hard or anything, but he didn't even notice it :rolleyes: ) but well now suddenly I appreciate him more, I mean I was the only one in the world that saw him get born (accept his mom, even though she more like felt it then saw it), that's how long I have him, I stayed up nights to give him the bottle because he didn't get enough mothermilk I taught him everything he knows (which isn't much…it took me months to learn him 'sit')

Anyways, I might benefit from a councelor…just my schools councelor is like the biggest $%#@ ever… and I really don't do well with psychologists…don't know why really, specially since I might wanna study psychology…but I talk to my friends…'specially my sister (halfsister, we share the same dad with a ten days difference…we always been more like best friends then real sisters since we never lived together)

I'm glad today's going better. And it's a shame your school doesn't have a better concellor, why do they hire the jerks? My old school had this half-assed one, and she was the worst! It's like 'yeah, people are gonna go to her!' :rolleyes: <_<

But remember, we're here for ya, so let us know if ya need someone to scream at! ;)

Maybe mean councelors are cheaper? :D

And well this board really does help when you're down ;) and when your happy too…it's an all moods kind of board :lol:

Irene, sorry I'm late here but, *HUGS*. That's awful, I'm sorry you have to go through this. I mean, an autistic sibling is horrible enough, but on top of that your mother's ill, I'm so sorry.

I can relate to the mean counselor thing as well. I went to mine this week about some course stuff and all we ended up doing was fighting, and we went around and around in circles and it ended with me storming out....I swear in four years that asshole hasn't changed! So I know what it's like. But I'm glad you've got your half sister to help you out a bit. And like Jemma said, we're all here.