I hide away; your gaze is painful,
One brick, two brick, more,
I can't handle the world,
The world can't handle me.
I build my wall higher and higher,
I can't let you in,
You beg, you plead, you guilt,
But the despair is taking hold.
I need you; I light up when you are near,
But I can't let go, can't get rid of my demons,
It's a permanent wall around me.
A cloak, so stifling,
A blanket that’s smothering,
A choke hold I can't shake off.
Too much to fight, too much hurt to try,
Im tired of running.
Help me please,
I can't go on,
I need you by my side.
The nights are drawing in now baby,
I need your help to hide.
To much hurt,
To much love,
The despair is closing in.
Every time the lights are off,
I break down, break away,
‘You can't keep up this façade any longer babes,’
You say it as though it's bad.
I can,
I will,
Leave me be,
I’ve managed for all these years.
‘How long until you pull the trigger,
And go towards the light?’
Where I’m going babe,
I say in a whisper,
I won’t need to be afraid.
‘But what if the passing does fail?’
Try once, try twice, try so many times.
Once you’re dead inside,
You cannot fail.